There are just few of those unforgettable  "where were you when you heard" moments. I was in my backyard when my daughter called that Michael Jackson had died. She was just a toddler during the sensational Moonwalk. Today there is instant Internet, Twitter, Facebook, chat rooms, and more to spread the news immediately.

The rich and famous die. We all do and it makes me wonder why we go on as if we lived here forever. Why do we fuss and why does all this matter so much? Sure, it is good to put our life in order even for just peace of mind and to make it easy on our loved ones, but beyond that much of it might be a waste of time. Yet, while here, it would be nice to remodel the kitchen, clean the clutter, organize the photo gallery... and then travel and have fun. Dying is somewhere in the future and we postpone thinking about it as if we are not ready yet. I was ready a few times when it seemed inevitable. Surrounded by my family, I felt love and peace and felt then it would be easy to go. It was difficult to come back and fight again in pain.

And for others the life goes on for now but it can end or change so suddenly. How would I  be remembered? I would like to be remembered as a brave, courageous woman like they say about some but I am not that. These days I feel angry with sorrow and many regrets for many reasons, scared too and certainly not courageous. I should channel that negativity into determination and energy to heal my immune system, repair my muscles and walk again or at least feel and show some improvements in health. Otherwise this time will go into a pile of more regrets and lost opportunities.

This is also a time to remember that life has miraculous moments. Last week I went to see Cirque du Soleil with my family. We also celebrated birthdays of my grandchildren, the youngest one now learning to walk. Life's beauty is not continuous but rather memorable moments of true joys.

How do you deal with pain, anger, regrets and sorrow? And how do you capture the memorable gems of life?